Sometimes this season feels like swimming underwater, holding my breath, just trying not to drown. There are these beautiful moments of seeing the sun and breathing deep, but then the weight of the world pushes me back under. Sometimes it feels like a roller coaster of emotions, like a continuous a tidal wave of grief … Continue reading Always Pray, Don’t Give Up
God
Dear Church
Dear Church, It’s time we do better. Pastors, leaders, elders, deacons, congregants, volunteers, givers. Collectively. It’s time. Let’s. Do. Better. The church is meant to be a place of restoration, reconciliation, and redemption. It’s supposed to be a safe place. Instead, we’ve experienced retaliation and rejection. Again. I grieve for the bitter tastes of organized … Continue reading Dear Church
Church Hurt
“Familiarity breeds contempt.” The pain is recognizable. The parallels are shocking. The red flags became clearer much quicker this time. It’s hard not to filter this experience through the previous one. There must be more to learn here. “Familiarity breeds contempt.” But maybe there’s another way forward this time. Maybe the familiarity can instead spark … Continue reading Church Hurt
Finding My Voice
It’s an odd thing: to be in a space that feels all too familiar, but you’re not the same person you were back then. You’ve grown, you’ve picked up some tools along the way, but here you are again. Same pain, similar story, different location. But this ending will be different than the last … Continue reading Finding My Voice
Anchor
It’s been a long 6 months… and I have missed sharing in this space. Originally I took a break from blogging to focus on motherhood; the work-home balance had pushed me to my limits. Instead, parenting a child with special needs took some unexpectedly hard twists and turns. Add in some stress and overwhelm (and … Continue reading Anchor
Goodbye (for now)
Seasons change. It’s a truth that I can grasp at varying levels. Weather, yes. Life, not so much. I’m co-leading an amazing Life Group based on the book Rhythms of Renewal by Rebekah Lyons. It’s timely and eye-opening. And it’s bringing to light some things I need to adjust. I recently discovered that I’m in … Continue reading Goodbye (for now)
In Loving Memory
Last weekend my sister and I took a quick trip to Seattle to see family and attend a memorial for our Grandma Ries. Rosemary’s story was often a mystery to us. I’ve been told her life was not an easy one. I’ve always wondered why she disliked and avoided having her picture taken. I feel … Continue reading In Loving Memory
My Race to Run 