My most-read blog to date was published on April 27, 2016. Ironically, it was probably my hardest blog to publish.

It’s the raw and real, a topic that’s not really discussed, something I’ve struggled with for the better part of motherhood.

I wish I could tell you that three years have passed and I’ve mastered this area or at least grown exponentially in love for the person I originally wrote about.

The truth is, just last week, I was feeling crushed as a mom and didn’t know how I was going to recover. God gently reminded me of this blog and I knew I needed to track it down. To read it, broken-hearted… with fresh eyes, even if they were filled with tears. To remember. To learn. To receive. To grow.

Being a parent can be such a daunting, discouraging and downright difficult journey. I’ve spent so many years trying to make my kids better, only to find out I’m the one that needs the most improvement.

Since we’re being honest… sometimes it’s hard to love. It’s often hard to love the people we’re closest to, the ones we chose and the ones He chose for us. It’s hard to let go of past hurts, to keep no record of wrong, and to trust God to turn all things to good.

And even though it’s hard, I don’t believe it’s impossible. I believe that with God, all things are possible. And I believe that His love is unconditional and unfailing. So even when our love has reached its limits, we can receive His love, let it change us, and then love those around us with His perfect love.

I would love for you to take a few moments to read the original blog, When it’s Hard to Love. I think it is a taboo topic, talking about loving one of your kids less than the others. But I also wonder why it was the most-read blog.

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My family 😊 on Mother’s Day 2019 at Liberty Church!